Thanksgiving 2019

It is impossible to believe that we have been in quarantine for 46 days, yet here we are. I have spent most of my days with my head spinning out of control, watching murder shows on ID and trying to come up with a new craft project (dang pintrest is a huge contributor to my stress) . I have an extremely difficult time starting new projects: what with trying to make a decision on what craft I want to do next, like tatting, beading, jewelry making, cross stitching or plastic canvas etc.  and then the fun of trying to choose colors for the project aggghhh! I have an okay time while I am in the middle of a project but then when I reach the end I have a hideous time completely finishing it. I actually have lots of new crafts I want to try but trying to pick one is overwhelming. I am a massive craft hoarder and I have a room full of supplies that would almost put hobby lobby to shame but that is completely overwhelming because there is so much and such a wide variety. I don’t know what my problem is but I feel like one big giant mess.

It is getting harder and harder to come up with ideas for my holiday tatted/beaded cards.  It is just as hard to come up with card sayings and ideas, in fact trying to come up with cards is a good part of the reason why they sometimes get sent out so late or sometime not at all. The next holiday is a perfect example of both.

These are the motifs for Thanksgiving  2019

I had already made leaves for a card a couple of years ago but I couldn’t come up with anything else, so I found this idea by Marilee Rockley. I don’t much like the little beaded guy so wasn’t super proud to send these out. I made 13 total doodads but I only sent 6 of them out, mostly due to the fact that I thought they were not so good and partly because they probably got sent out late. I don’t like any of the colors and the poor scarecrow is just sad. I used 2 different brands of thread and I was a bit surprised how different the 2 threads were size wise. The gold leaf is artiste size 10 as is called topaz and the red one is red heart classic size 10 and it is burgundy.

We couldn’t come up with anything witty to put on the cards so we decided to just tell it like it is.  You probably can’t see what is says in the parentheses but it says “insert appropriate number here”.

I hope everybody is staying safely at home and working on lots of fun projects. It is quite the feeling knowing that the whole world is doing the same thing and going through the same stuff. 

Halloween 2019

Time is just absolutely flying by. I am still behind on my posts so I am going to continue to try to catch up on posting about past holidays. As I have said before I rely on my blog posts if ever I want or need to go back to previous tatting to remember what I have done.

I believe the next holiday that I need to post about is Halloween 2019.

I ended up making 13 of these doodads but I only sent 7 of them out. I would venture a guess that they probably got sent out late because that’s the way I usually do things (I am not  proud of that but I am really trying to figure out why I have such a hard time completing projects). That would also explain why only part of them got sent out. I found the pattern for the tatting on pintrest, it’s a pattern by L. Shelby and you can find it here. I changed the pattern a little bit because she has the pattern listed as a dragon and I wanted it to look like a bat. This was a pretty fun pattern to work but it’s one you have to pay attention to while doing it because its easy to miss a join. In fact, I made 2 of them that are unusable because I forgot a small ring on one of the wings and on another one I missed a join. I used artiste thread, size 20 and the color is called pewter.

I have sent out Halloween motifs for the last 4 years and I haven’t missed a year since I started tatting so I have pretty much ran out of patterns for this holiday. I found a witch hat by Gillian Buchanan that has a written pattern and a diagram but for some reason I tried it and failed dismally. I can’t seem to figure it out. I may have to try it again because I can’t find anything else. I haven't been doing much tatting lately because I cant seem to find something to tat. Since I didn't send out any holiday ones last year I am ahead of the game for this year and Halloween 2020 is actually the next project I need to make stuff for. I have been doing lots of cross stitch because I realized that I never made a birth announcement for our grand son (my husbands daughters son) that will be 2 in June. I had made one for his brother so I figured I should do one for him as well.  I also decided to make one for our new grand daughter (Jeez she will be turning 1 this month) and she has 2 siblings that I am working on as well.  These have kept me quite busy but it has been way too long since I have tatted and I am starting to really miss it. I need to find a project soon before I forget how! 

Let go? Let go!

It sure has been a crazy last couple of months. I have hesitated to post something lately because I don’t even know where to start. I guess first off, I thought I would get some time to start posting a bit more regularly because I lost my job. My boss let me go toward the end of February, just about a week after my last post. It is pretty much a case of "be careful what you put out into the universe and extra careful what you put into writing!  I actually had asked for a meeting with him so I could discuss the way my job has been going but before I could talk to him about my concerns  he decided that things weren’t working for him so he decided to let me go. I may never know if we went into the meeting with his intent to fire me or if it was his “not thinking past this 5 minute personality” or him not wanting to hear what it is I wanted to talk about as he really hates to hear about any of his failings and he will go to great lengths to avoid having to deal with those.  I have been trying really hard to think of this as a good thing and that he did me a favor in letting me go because I have been desperately stressed and not happy at all at work lately but he paid really , really well and it is going to be pretty difficult to replace that.  

 I tend to pretty much bury my head in the sand and haven’t been able to deal with facing current events as I have been so stressed about just dealing with my own every day to day stress that adding anymore to my already beyond stressed life would probably push me over the edge so I really hadn’t even know that the whole world was falling apart around me with the pandemic. I took a trip to Idaho to go back home the week after I was let go. The trip had actually been planned  several weeks ahead of that so it was kind of a bummer about the timing of it all because had I known a bit earlier that I  didn’t have to rush back for work I would have been able to have a longer visit. It was during my trip that I started to learn about what was going on with the extent of the pandemic. A couple of days after returning from Idaho my husband’s boss made the decision to close down his business for the time being to participate in the social distancing practices and a few days after that Washington made it mandatory that all non-essential businesses close. My husband is working part time and he is down to making 20% of his salary but so far, he pretty much spends the largest part of his day in the back room doing heaven only knows what on the computer. I am taking it a bit personally that he doesn’t want to spend any time with me but I cant say that I blame him because I am beyond stressed and probably not a lot of fun to be with.  Its already been almost 3 weeks that he has been off and so far, we haven’t really gotten anything done. We have lots of things that needs done around the house, but I have been so depressed and stressed out that I find it extremely difficult most days to even get out of bed. The longer I just sit around the harder it is to get up off the couch. My head has been spinning and my self-esteem has been completely back in the dumps and  I have been feeling pretty worthless after giving my heart and soul to a job and boss and to have him find me not valuable or worth a crap to even try to listen to me or to try to work things out and to just want me gone has been devastating. I have never been let go from a job before and let me tell you it sucks! I know I just need to pull on my big girl pants and move on but that is also difficult when I know that I don’t even need to pull on pants because we are all stuck at home. I really just need to keep thinking that at least we are fairly healthy, and after all, I need to stay healthy because I don't have insurance anymore.   Hehe…maybe tomorrow will be a more productive day!